Monday, May 26, 2008 /5:14 PM
Today is our Chinese O level paper 1 & 2.
And I screw up a part of my paper one, really badly...
I totally wrote out of point in section 2 ... *cries*
What am I gonna do now... my life is doom.
No prayers, no magic and no miracle is going to help me now. It's over!!!
This is horrible, very bad, this is .... OMG
♥ みちよ
Sunday, May 25, 2008 /7:14 PM
Friday, May 23, 2008 /4:14 PM
It's the last day of the 1st Semester!!! hooray!!!
Mrs Yau made her delicious Strawberry Chocolate Cheesecake for us!!!!!
Oiishi Ne!!!
Smile Jolene ^^
It's empty...
This is the amount of dirt on top of the teacher's desk. Our classroom will defiantly attract ants, many ants....
Thanks Mrs Yau!!!
♥ みちよ
Wednesday, May 21, 2008 /10:22 PM
♥
Together
forever...
The day you went off was the day I cherish you the most,
After seeing you walking away, I’ve regretted so much.
You meant something to me and I treasure it so much in my heart,
I want to thank you for your friendship, your love, your kindness,
your deepest compassion, your trust and even your company.
Everything had been different ever since that day, I miss you dearly.
I miss the jokes and laughter together with you.
I miss the sweetest, craziest, angriest, memorable times we had.
I want to hug you, to kiss on your cheeks.
I want to squeeze your cheeks and fats on your arms and belly.
I want to spend more time with you.
I want you to stay.
I know that this is your choice and I want to respect that.
This is just how I feel, and I wish you knew.
Every night I’ve been dreaming of you,
Thinking of you every night before sleep.
At that moment I held back, taught that I could brave,
but I was not able to.
It will never be the same like before.
No one will ever replace you.
I will never forget you in my entire life.
Although your looks fades away from my memory,
I will never forget who you were and what you meant to me.
I have so much to say, but I couldn't say it out.
I hope that you would remember me as well.
Just promise me to visit once awhile.
That alone would mean a lot to me.
I Love You. ♥
♥ みちよ
Saturday, May 17, 2008 /10:40 PM
Music to my ears, heart & soul
To me music is a way to express myself...
Music expresses all of my emotions, my love, my sadness, my happiness, my loneliness and my existence in this world.
I wish to play all my life, never to give up...
To continue to create music and to appreciate music.
Music is everywhere,
all you have to do is listen...
Here's my dream piano...
Long to play on it one day...
Check this latest piano design, cool huh... ^^
♥ みちよ
Friday, May 16, 2008 /9:33 PM
Konbanwa mina... nee... Have been feeling terrible these days because of my poorly done exam results...
My results are horrible, terrible and .... *sigh*
Failed 3 subjects.... This is terrible, very....
Failed Science, Chinese and English!!!!
Can you believe it?!?! Oh gosh....
Char was the only passer among the girls for English...
Math: 54/100
Art: 61/100
C.Hum.: 67/100
I can't believe it, I really can't....
I'm so, so thankful for my mum's understanding this time... I've not shared my results to my Dad yet.... I have no idea what will happen if I do... I'm really doom for this time... God Help me!!!
Well, there's nothing I could do to change the fact that my results are shit and like I blabbed about so more before... I shall endure all failures and hard times, and really work hard to strive for the better... not to stay aside to sober like a child but really to improve myself for the better.
Especially the Chinese 'O' Level exams are coming soon in 10 days time and I need to study my butt off for it.
The thing is I doubt that I would be able to score a B3 in order not to re-take....
Oh man.... SHINE, SHINE, SHINE!!!!!
♥ みちよ
Wednesday, May 7, 2008 /11:37 AM
There's no school today!!! But I'm not slacking, maybe just for a while but I am preparing for my Art. Just felt like blogging for a while.
Two more MYE papers to go... Phy/chem MCQ paper and Art. Kind of going a little crazy for art... I'm no good in doing landscapes and yet I'm choosing it... My skills are not enough... Not only landscapes... others as well.
Oh man...
My brother showed me the way he sketches, it looks simple... but my hands won't be able to control the pencil like the way he did.
Shall take a photo and show you the difference between his and my. The master-piece and the loser-piece. *cries*
Don't feel well these few days, its like a knife stabbed into my heart. Like there's unwanted hot heat in side that just can't seem to come out.
*sigh*
Oh man, slap myself!
Just get this stupid exams done, get excellent grade for O'levels and get the hell of this school!
Sorry kind of crazy now... *sigh*
Shall do continue on my art now and just revise for Phy/chem tonight ....
And do some praying later as well...
♥ みちよ
Monday, May 5, 2008 /10:35 AM
Exams are sure a pain in the neck.
Two extra pimples appeared on my face due to the stress, haha >.<
Well it's the exams after all.
Well don't think I would do well this MYE, I'm ready to face the music from my parents.
Guess that I'm really not ready yet...
Don't want to talk about how I did for MYE papers...
But due to this situation I put myself into, I did some soul searching...
So it's so called "emo" time...
Have been thinking about so many things again, hey that's me...
That's one of my problems as well, I get so hook up on my own thoughts that I drive myself crazy. Ha ha
*Sigh*
Well, I notice that there are many ups and downs that I've gone through before, and it's always the downs that really made me give up hope all the time... It's not that I want it or something... it just happen.
I have many dreams and goals that have not been fulfilled yet...
It's just that there's this irritating wall in front of me that blocks my path...
It was built by all of my negative thoughts, the pain things I've gone through... the memories that I've not let go yet...
There are people who encourages me to move on, to stay strong, to believe in myself, I appreciate them so much, and I thank them a lot. If it wasn't for them to stand by my side, I would have fall.
The sweetest songs are the ones which has the saddest thoughts... and that is so true. Take Ayumi Hamasaki's song "Together When..." I've read the lyrics and it's heart breaking. Another example is Rihhan's song "Take A Bow" It is about her caughting her lover cheating...
I've blogged so many of my own thoughts and how I've mess my life up and rebuilding it up and failing it again time after time.
Guess that I've screw my life up before and now I'm putting the pieces back together again like a puzzle, It takes lots of patients and time.
Oh well, like what people said, I hold the key to my own life, I create my own story, It's my choice of how I want to be, only I choose my own life, I'm the only one who stands in the way blocking my own path.
It's me who I fear the most, because I'm afraid to be the person that I want to be, I fear to take up challenges, I fear to try, to ask, to want, to dream. I fear to fear.
I made myself to fear, to lose courage, to be weak, to fear the mistakes I've made or to fear to make the mistakes...
And I ...........
It's just that..............
Life is changing, and I don't want to face that fact somehow due to somethings in life...
OMG someone slap me now.
Just that I've just to face it, and really stay positive no matter what.
ermm examples:
Someone I like likes another? As long he's happy, I glad and all I can do is just to stand a side and pray for him to live life well.
Or My parents scolds the hell out of me, I have to accept it and to just blame it on myself, learn the mistakes, to understand why and really try harder for myself... they care for me after all.
I'm not saying that I've to be a stone, to endure everything at one go, I will let it out once in a while, take it as a remember why I'm here for. And just keep moving forward....
I will move forward, to be a better person, to overcome my fears.
To Love my life. To care for myself and allow myself to build up.
♥ みちよ
Thursday, May 1, 2008 /10:14 AM
Wow exams exams exams .....
Have to study like crazy ....
But its not easy at all...
There was Math and SS paper today, it was sure horrible, both did....
Didn't complete the papers at all.
Math: I'm not exposed to the some questions before, thus not able to do.
SS : Didn't study much on diplomacy... but suddenly remember everything during the last 5 mins and it was a 13 marks question. Wrote half-way through only, thus not able to finish it up. EL: Worried that everything would go wrong ... if so I'm dead .... really dead ....
MT: Nothing to say ... -_-'''' But really tried my best... still dead ....
Oh man.... this is horrible, bad and terrible ......
Somehow I did thought that I would at least try to score well for the MYE...
But at the looks of it and the way I'm going... I might not.
*sigh* this is hell
♥ みちよ
To me music is a way to express myself...
Here's my dream piano... 
Check this latest piano design, cool huh... ^^